I found this writing of mine in my files somewhere. It was a nice reminder to myself. Maybe it's nice for you too:
Oh my Goddess, I just realised something:
I hate being in control!!!!!
I totally hate it!
I didn't expect that.
As I seem to make a lot of effort to be in control.
But it's true!
There's nothing I hate as much.
I feel dead when I'm in control,
and cut off from life.
Thank Goddess for chaos!!!!
So why the effort?
Totally been conditioned in to believing I need control.
Ok, so not, apparantly.
Phew, what a relief!
( This image is not mine, honestly I don't know who's it is but I love it and am thankful that they created it and hope that they don't mind me using it here to illustrate surrender.)